how can I say this???

No matter I don’t want to face reality..

it's just scare the shit out of me...

i can't help it...

can't help myself....

it makes me hate everyone that i care and love....

i just feel soo alone...

no one can help me in this....

it will still haunt me until I decided to just take over and grow up to take the responsibility…

I just want to be free of anything cause I just wan tot enjoy my life till I’m sick of it..

by that way I can just be myself and I obey my very own rules that only I cant follow in my own little world where I have anything I ever wanted...