i suffer when I’m with you
i really do not understand what you would you want from me
whenever i try to forget you
you would appear before my eyes
Whenever I have problems
You will help me fix it
Whenever I hide myself in a place
You would look for me
Whenever I need you
You would not come
A while ago, i had tried to forget you
You had messaged me
I control myself not to reply to you
You called me in the afternoon
And I had to ignore it
You missed called me that night, twice
I ignore it still
My heart had asked me to call you back
But I did not do it
I have to forget everything about you and me
I have to control my mind not to think of you
I have to control my heart not to miss you
I have to control every single thing just for you
I must not miss you anymore
But yesterday
When I was in my room
I saw the message that you had sent to me
You had asked me what had happened to me
But I ignored you message
When I as doing my homework
You called me
Without even thinking my hand pressed the answer button
And you had to asked me where I was
And I answer 'home'
I told you I was busy
and hung up
after hanging up the phone
i scold myself asking
'why i was so stupid to have to answered you call'
i should have not answer
i should have not answer your phone
then you message me again
but i had to ignored it again and again
At night, i messaged you
And I told you
how good it would be if I can forget about you
how good it would if we did not know each other at all
how good it would be if everything between me and you ahd not happen before
i asked you a question
'will you be angry if i were to leave you alone’
i told myself if you answer was yes
it would mean that i am important to you
if the answer was no
that would mean leaving you
i bet with myself taht you would say no
but my heart wants you to say yes
you had replied my message
And you answer was no
This means that I had to leave you
All alone in your world
From that day onwards
I must not miss you anymore
I must not message or call you anymore
i have to get going with my normal life
Goodbye my past
And
Hello new start
By cherline
